Such Small Portions

Honorable Mention wins me $25.00 and some respect

2010-04-12T21:17:00.001-07:00

<a href="http://cults.bandcamp.com/album/cults-7">Go Outside by Cults</a>

On a Day in May

2010-02-15T22:27:00.000-08:00

The sun was fading in the western sky.

A new heart untouched, covered by the sea.

Time counting down as the hours float on by.

Change in face, in grace, has made them want me.

An update with a photo, it’s simple.

Displaying my colors like a peacock,

glance in the mirror, check for a pimple.

Stomach turn, time is calling from the clock.

Feet on the ground among the sea of roofs.

You shake my hand, the sun makes us glow.

We walk under shades and speak our truths.

This short meeting sold us and we now know

the search can stop and our hearts will unite.

From then till now, my love, a kiss goodnight.

NO...

2010-01-26T13:50:00.000-08:00

I do not want to start dancing around University Hall while The Shins play

In my head.

Nope, not me!

I'll sit here with my red drink and picture it

flat on my butt

It was warm in this building when I got here but

I got use to it.

My back hurts sitting on the hard ground

I'll get use to that later.

I'm too early for things to go up or down.

I'll just sit here and list things that I do not want to happen

while sipping on my cold syrup.

It's so cliche it makes my brain freeze

I never said please and I never said stop!

I cant relate, man... go tell your tales to someone who was there from day 1.

the floor with a view

2009-10-31T23:39:00.000-07:00

all of what I thought I knew is visible from here
flat on my back
looking up
my old things hang from dusty shelves
I can see the new shapes take form with every passing
of the fan blades
shadows on the wall grow bigger
I grow smaller

Gravity keeps me locked
another man's theory keeps me outside
a glad creates
all as the celluloid keeps burning

Still here
within my four familiar walls
unsure of whats really in here

Something tells me I'd be a wreck without the fear.

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It never makes sense to me, why I didn't write what first came to mind. I intended to write these words but what came out on the screen was something less developed. Maybe my hands liked what is was pouring out and my brain went with the flow of my fingers. Mini minds of their own, many years ago they could even dial a phone. My intentions where not these few words either. Perhaps what I really want to type feels like it needs a disclaimer, an introduction or what I'm doing here, an intention. So here it is, for no rhyme or reason:

My pink bras hang from my Menorahs
a collection of Santo cards look on with their weary faces
the fan casts blinking shadows on the walls
nothing is what it seems
when I'm on the floor
flat on my back
this place is not my own

Where have I been and what am I doing?
Where Have I Been And What Am I Doing?
WHere HAve I BEen ANd WHat AM I DOing?
WHEre HAVe I BEEn AND WHAt AM I DOIng?
WHERE HAVE I BEEN AND WHAT AM I DOINg?
WHERE HAVE I BEEN AND WHAT AM I DOING?

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I cant seem to find that person in me anymore.

What do you mean? What person?

My inner voice that kept me company for so many years!
After social gatherings after work and school, it was just me and me.

What is it now?

Now its just me talking to myself.

I've never gone anywhere, I've been here this whole time!

I don't believe that.

Well who do you think you are talking to now?

Not the me I knew before, that's for sure.
Not having that familiar voice make me feel like I'm chasing a dissolving night's dream. Every time I try to remember the sound, it drifts farther away.

That sounds horrible!

You should know.

Vestiges of a day in July

2009-07-08T19:37:00.000-07:00

lights from houses compete with the skies memory of the sun

people quicken their steps to feel safe under the last few hues of blue

bare feet on concrete can still absorb the days heat

whats left of it

pine tree needles seem soft

the webs in them begin to hang heavy

bike reflectors shimmer while headlights become more obvious

drive with the windows open to catch the declining warm sweet air

whats left of it

I'm over here now

2009-06-22T13:14:00.001-07:00

This is where I am .

The same Hot Pocket taste

in my, now, familiar mouth

Humming A/C air blows my hair

Same old ways with new days ahead.

A time like this passes

as fast as your eyes follow a wandering fly

trapped in the back room.

Alone with someone

is and will always be a riddle.

Platonic in the Potomac

2009-05-10T14:29:00.000-07:00

(poem is still in the works but I had to set the title down somewhere)

Platonic in the Potomac
It's really hard to say
Even harder to feel the day you went away

Platonic in the Potomac
I thought it all would last
but you packed your case
and went back east
you mentioned something about finding peace

Platonic in the Potomac
I crossed the states divides
it was a 48 hour plus drive
to keep my eyes open I'd have to keep on hopein'
that I'd find our love's
neon sign still flashin' "Open"

Platonic in the Potomac
I arrived with less than leaving
my foolish smile on the dash of the car
you gave me praise for how far
I've come.

Platonic in the Potomac
lets not take it slow
and to hide my sorrow
I said I'd be back tomorrow
but instead

(got stuck here, edits later)

Kids with Cash

2009-04-28T17:22:00.000-07:00

This is for the kids with car payments
This is for the kids with bank statements
They use their full names
middle initial
They can sign papers and make it all official!
Direct deposit the money
Don't ask me if its okay
I put in a lot of hours
and the money will show up in May
Pay stubs in the visor
Don't trust your college adviser
If so, get a receipt
Take it back with tags attached
Get a good deal
Check your grades
check your credit
This is for the kids with the plastic safety nets
Don't worry how bad it gets!
You're smarter for it
They'll all admit
under their breath.
This is for the kids with the cash in hand
This is for the kids with school at their feet.

Black and White Notebook #3-05

2009-04-22T22:36:00.000-07:00

I take that bad day and push it into a small ball
a dot of ink on this pad
that I use when I'm mad
there are more fads to buy into
no more clothes that don't fit well
I've taken the initiative
this time.
I can watch the blue prints cry with sorrow
thinking of ending their lives and
making no tomorrow
a lot goes into creating the end
rusty blades
frayed ropes
All while I sit back and clear my throat
to watch it all unfold
I sit there holding a tattered tote
filled with rattling pills
I've found a secret door that takes me
to that place in the floor where music and smoke
fills the night air
an illusion is captured in a small glass jar
taken to heart
then thrown real far
my foot hits the black tar
and I cant find my car
its all a dream
you see?
I was just simply
wishing on a
star.

While sitting in my corner I quickly call
the coroner to advise my body is read to order.

Now I'm back
the florescent light shines for attention
as the instructor in the front is about to mention
something about cell division.

Black and White Notebook #2- 05

2009-04-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

I am that spill in the grocery store.

I fell in the dark and my puddle
oozes and influenced the ground until dawn.
When I'm found
Shoppers will protest the grotesque display
as they pull out their wallets to pay

I am blocked off
in yellow rope
hopes of attention
I am only mentioned

My surface tension is broken by the
intention of your mop
as it sops
sops

You've cured the texture of the ground
with a simple cleaning solution
You have come to my conclusion
cleaned up my illusion
So I can say I love you
as my molecules diffuse
in the water of your bucket
you make sure I'm erased
that I am Safe.

Black and White Notebook #1- 05

2009-04-22T22:05:00.000-07:00

I am crazy.
I contemplate issues that will never
arise in any conversation.
I derive in public.
I think I've done it
secularized my insanity and
destroyed humanity in my eyes.
Broken and apart I was left to rot in my room
where I riot about my dreams.
My blood steams and the scene is just too old.
I think he will give me his cold.

"The Road To Joy"

2009-03-28T12:04:00.000-07:00

This time next weekend I'll be some where in the middle of Arizona expecting to find a difference in the sun's light at dusk. It's around this time next weekend that I'll be at the wheel of a car that I find to be ridiculous in size. This time next weekend I'll let my nostalgia wash over my mind, making all the sights, sounds and smells bigger than they have to be. I'll leave the dirt on my skin so I can wear it as badge of honor when I arrive at my destination. I want three state suns to shine on the crown of my head. I'm gonna bring my Ocean in the strands of my hair but the desert's tan in my hands. I wanna ask if we are out of the mountains yet. Are we near the red dirt? I'll find it tragic that a town can be dissected with two lanes. Everyone will complain.

My expectations will be higher than my state's chipped shoulders and the magic will only follow me through the Texas state line. Turns out, I was just riding on the sweet air's decline and the beauty will come harder and the sky light will work longer.

The Killers vs. Roxy Music (not really though)

2009-03-04T21:40:00.000-08:00

One might say that these two songs can walk hand in hand and have a "glorious existence" together on a playlist... just sayin'.

The Killers-The World We Live In

Roxy Music- The Thrill Of It All

higher education is for the birds...

2009-02-19T19:45:00.000-08:00

because they can fly really high!

So yeah, this "semester off" has resulted in boredom and A LOT of hours at work.

My first semester at a, real, four year college will start August 31. In the mean time, I will continue to lust after Brandon Flowers and hopefully continue re-reading a lot of stuff from past literature classes... cause I'm a "Literature Major", whatever that means.

In other news:
6 weeks till Texas road trip

you are apart of

2009-02-12T11:54:00.000-08:00

Mediocrity,
it isn't funny to me

Now that I'm sitting inside the gray
day to day
I can no longer display
my tall talk of
schemes and half hatched dreams

Hours cemented to a muted, dark, blue
these thick walls block the skies vast views

I can no longer be a critic
as much as I want to stand alone
my feet refuse to move, they can only mimic

I no longer need a telescope to see
the waves of pity
for they are at my shore

I thought I had more

time

It's an oldie but goodie

2009-02-09T11:22:00.000-08:00

Tapping at my door, dirt under nails, swish of shoes, creak in the floor, a bump, bump at the glass, ticking from the AC, illusion of rain, giving us a taste, we really exist, worth watering, swish, swish of dry skin, the wave of carpet as it meets bare floors, perfect excision for a shadow, block of time, color, space, earth, to build some steps to reach the shelf to get more pieces, to build a shelf to hold more pieces, waves of excitement, anxiety, joy, nothing settle, only the nose offending abruptness of our quick moving lights, perhaps a light musk of semi stillness, cold spot in the pillow, wiggle of toes, shuffling to and fro, sun engulfed skin, knowing that the trees are looking up for more reasons then thought possible

Barack Obama is a Hero of Mine

2009-02-08T14:12:00.000-08:00

What do Brandon Flowers and Barack Obama have in common? They are both NME, Hero of the Year, nominees!?

I personally think Barack Obama and Brandon Flowers are a great examples of the modern day American hero.

Back in July 08 while I was wondering the aisles of Comic Con, I saw a shirt that portrayed, the then Presidential candidate, Barack Obama as a super hero. The shirt's image shows Obama ripping his suit and tie off his chest to reveal a Superman-like "O". By the 4th day of the Con, I decided to spend the last of my money on one of the shirts and I'm glad I did. In actuality,it's hard not to see Obama as a larger then life super hero that has saved/saving our country/world from villains like G.W. Bush, Dick Chaney and that evil, wolf killing, Sarah Palin.

But super powers aside and a few posts ago, I remember ranting and raving because John McCain criticized Obama for being too "eloquent". I also went on about other Obama opponents calling him an "elitist". I made my claim that there was nothing wrong with wanting to be an "elitist" and I was at war with the term "average American". I still believe that there is no such thing as an "average American" and we all have our own brand of awesomeness within us, somewhere. So yes, Obama is a hero of mine, his presidency has brought back our American-can do anything because we are the land of possibilities- air.

Now watch out, this is where the Brandon Flowers comes in:

If I can call Obama a hero then I can call Brandon Flowers a hero for some of the same reasons. Over the past 5 years, Flowers and co. have been proving to the world that they do not want to be an "average"(there's that word again) rock band. Whether it be in the clothes he wears, the statements he makes or the songs he and band mates write, Brandon Flowers and The Killers have never been afraid of wanting to be better. Yes, some critics have seen this "arrogance" as off putting but I, personally, see it as refreshing and inspiring.

I may not be a rock star or the President of the United States but I sure as hell want to be the best damn American Literature major/future professor I can be!

"I don't really mind that its starting to get to me"

2009-02-07T23:06:00.000-08:00

The Killers Live From Abbey Road from booknutdc on Vimeo.

Justifying My Claim

2009-02-03T22:17:00.000-08:00

This is where I stop trying to justify myself and start accepting the fact that I am obsessed with all things The Killers and Brandon Flowers. So "forget about what I said" in the previous post and expect to see more of the same (f0r now at least).

Though I may feel slightly embarrassed about some of these posts, I just have to remember that no one probably sees nor cares about what I say/write here.

Looking back at some older posts, from last year, I noticed that I had multiple posts about actor Sam Rockwell. I'm pretty sure the Sam Rockwell stuff is proof that I tend to create my own bandwagons and choose to never jump off of them... so I guess its more of a bandwagon train. Anywho, I blame MTV for my 30 second attention span.

What was I talking about?

Oh, yeah, bandwagons.

Yes, I missed the bandwagon when "Day & Age" came out in November and hence missed The Killers when they played a show in L.A.

Yes, I am upset that there are no San Diego dates scheduled and NO I will not waste the money and resources to go to Coachella to see them headline Saturday's show.

Ok then, I think thats all I have to say about this... Sam Rockwell-still cool, The Killers- still awesome(since 04), Brandon Flowers-still hot(since 04).

This train is now leaving the station.

Thank you Eli Cash...

2009-01-31T18:46:00.000-08:00

for making this wonderful desktop:

I promise that this will be the last of it!

Here is the direct link

http://i99.photobucket.com/albums/l309/propagandakid/Publication1.jpg

"It's like Ziggy Stardust meets the Belagio"

2009-01-27T18:26:00.000-08:00

I'm clearly shaking this all off very slowly and the feathered shoulders are beginning to grow fur. Holding on and packing up is what I do best:

Color me Love from booknutdc on Vimeo.

Before you say I'm "Losing Touch" here are two things:

2009-01-26T23:54:00.000-08:00

First:

Here is a really gaudy thing I made-

Glitter Graphics

Second:
This is "No You Girls" by Franz Ferdinand and it has nothing to do with The Killers!

But just for the hell of it:

killer update

2009-01-26T10:34:00.000-08:00

"When I hear other people, I want to be better than them. I won't apologize for it. It's nothing dirty."

I now have 6 remix versions of "Human"

NO, I will not apologize for this!!

2009-01-25T16:20:00.000-08:00

"I want to be better than you"

Because I need 5 remix versions of "Human" on both my ipods!

let us go

2009-01-17T20:36:00.000-08:00

I was on top of that hill, again. The small man made hill that held our man made machines was mowed over last year and then re-constituted with supporting retaining walls and newly planted growth that seemed to embrace the loose fill dirt of the hill's banks. I was at the edge looking out over the brown buildings with their dull dim amber lights glowing and guiding its patrons. The roofs, of ancient construction, were still flat and uneven holding pools of stagnant water. For a time, I just sat in my spot on the new hill that was built over the old hill that was in front of the new road that was built over the old road which leads to those crystallized, untouched, brown buildings with their aging trees and tired faces. The elevation at the top was enticing enough but as I took each step to descend, the familiarity of the solid ground was stomach turning. Now walking under the chipped wood eves and the foggy lit lanterns at my shoulders, my shoes met the smooth hard pavement and gave it a friendly hug and kiss as each foot propelled me forward to the past. With my head now on the ground my face was filled with crushing frustration. This was nothing like my airy hill that held my memories of shaded trees and flashes of familiar, worn, faces. I was now powerless in my chair as the cement room began to fill with pools of past peers, I quickly drowned in my own nostalgia. Quick stinging smiles met my motionless face and I did nothing to return them to their senders. No ones words could hold my attention, only past pictures ran out of order through my kicking and swimming brain.

I went for the door when my time was up. I did my best to stand it but decided never to return.

These things I carried here belong on a shelf now- to be dusted and admired from a far. They are things that a hill can not hold and a tree can not grow, things that would cloud all future attempts to make it here.

And with that I go.

This is a good "Day & Age" for The Killers (an amateur music review)

2009-01-12T21:53:00.000-08:00

I bought The Killers first album, Hot Fuss, in October of 2004. I remember the month because around the same time I took a trip up north to Monterey to visit my best friend who was living there with her family at the time. On the short plane ride up north, I distinctly remember listening to Hot Fuss on my pink, Sony Walkman. Having already fell in love with The Killers first single from Hot Fuss, "Sombody Told Me", I quickly warmed to the whole album and by the time I got off the plane in Monterey,I was a fan.

For me, Hot Fuss was indeed something to make a fuss about, as I will do here:

First off, Brandon Flowers is one hell of front man and his Opera like wails that are heard on such tracks as "Mr. Brightside" and "Believe me Natalie" make me want to stand on a chair and sing along with one hand on my heart and the other extended to an imaginary audience (yes I have done this). Along with packing in the long melodics, Flowers also gives us some good new-wave/dancey songs like in "Sombody Told Me" and "Change Your Mind".

As far as lyrics and sound, the stand out track for me on Hot Fuss is "Andy, You're a Star". The sexual ambiguity of the song's lyrics are kinda confusing but yet they make perfect sense at the same time. I believe, around the same time The Killers were breaking, Franz Ferdinand were also releasing tracks from their self titled album and their song, "Michael", which is also pretty damn sexy, seemed to bring back the old school gender bending days of David Bowie. Also, for a time, Brandon Flowers sported pink tuxedos and wore lip gloss... which he was able to pull off, I think. However, I'm giving too much credit to Flowers and not enough to the band as a whole.

I believe I saw The Killers twice in concert after the release of Hot Fuss. Both were great shows and the entire band really put on an excellent show, which is something that not all bands are good at.

Skipping ahead to 2006, The Killers came out with their sophomore album, Sam's Town. Now, Sam's Town was suppose to be, I think, some kind of concept album that would show case The Killers hometown of Las Vegas. From its curtain raising "Enterlude", a way of welcoming all their listeners to their city of sounds and lights, to its not so catchy "Uncle Johnny", I felt that Sam's Town was missing the lyrical power that was heard on Hot Fuss. However (big however), "Read my Mind" is one of my favorite Killers songs and its the only track that seems smooth enough to be on Hot Fuss. Oh and yes, I did see The Killers a third time when they went on tour to promote Sam's Town.

Now The Killers are back with Day & Age, released in late 2008. I admit that I did not hear the first single from the album till weeks after it came out and when I finally did hear it I was kind of indifferent about it. It took me awhile to be able to listen to the entire album but after getting through it 5 or 6 times I knew I could say it was just as good as 2004's Hot Fuss.

Riding on the coat tails of the Las Vegas/ Southwest themed songs of Sam's Town, some of the tracks on Day & Age seem to be, like a fine wine, day and aged to perfection as opposed to some of the lack luster songs found on the sophomore album. For example, "Joy Ride", which has wonderful, descriptive, desert lyrics-" The desert wind is howling /Rattlesnakes and romance/Are spilling with the rain/Candy apple red dress/Bleeding when she kissed me". "Joy Ride" also features some awesome 80s- esc saxophone sounds which makes you want to say to yourself " did I just hear a saxophone in there?!". Of course the first single off the album, "Human", is a great pop song that grabs listeners and makes them answer the question "are we human or are we dancer" but listeners will find so much more in the lyrics and synth sounds of the other songs throughout the album.

Day & Age is close enough to the successes of Hot Fuss while still being faraway enough to be innovative and fresh. If I was a real music reviewer and not an amateur I would give Day& Age 4 and a half starts out of 5

Reliable Ambivalence

2009-01-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

Are you an effective communicator?

I'm going to throw some movie words

at you

put them in quotes

claim them as my own.

Is the future clear?

I'll make you a montage of

images

so that I may reflect it

like the see through

glass that I'm always

not.

How will we get there?

A series of thumbs to the wind,

gas and cash

I assume.

Indecision?

Yes but always with a quick

grab for a "no"

in my back pocket.

What do you want?

Anything and everything

I'll add it to my sack of things

its okay

whatever you think you can give

I may not need it now

but I'll know its there

was there

can be there

and when I'm off course

I'll know that I had what I wanted

and still have no Idea what to do

with it.

So, I'll put it on a shelf

like a sculpture

a picture.

Windowless View

2008-12-25T14:46:00.000-08:00

I'm doing my best...

from what I can
see through
the car windows

knock, knock

my awkwardness
projected and reflected
in the cold glass

my lack of thought
and my need for
nostalgia

makes it all the more
dreadful

lets move on to the next
one

Hail to the Chief ,of staff, Rahm Emanuel!!

2008-11-28T22:43:00.000-08:00

Barack Obama has been called a rock star (I say this like I have some source to prove it but I think me calling him a rock star is proof enough even though I've heard other say it) and now that he is our new President elect he's making sure that he surrounds himself with other rock start types. Rahm Emanuel, Obamas choice for Cheif of staff, has just the kind of rock star swagger to be part of Obama's posse.

The 49 year old representative for the 5th congressional district in Illinois, Rahm Emanuel has been nicked named "Rahm-bo" for his "take now prisoners" attitude (wikipage). In addition to his unique "fuck" you political style (which is FUCKING refreshing to see theses days) Emanuel has a past just as unique. For some time, Emanuel studied ballet and he is also missing half of his right middle finger due to a cut he sufferend while working in an Arbey's, after he suffered the cut, Emanuel went swimming in a near by lake and the wound got infected and most of his finger had to be amputated.

I'm definitely not the only one who thinks Rahm Emanuel is a rock star and should be treated as such, just check out this website:

http://rahmfacts.com/dossier.html

Those t-shirts would sure make good Christmas/Hanukkah gifts!!

"Change has come to America", says President Barack Obama

2008-11-04T23:34:00.000-08:00

Its November 4th 2008, 11:38PM.

Tonight the people of the United States, overwhelmingly, choose Barack Obama to be their 44th President...

WHICH IS PRETTY FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!111111111111

Hello, My Name Is Joe.

2008-10-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

McCain likes to make the argument that Obama is an "elitist" and that he is not in touch with the average American. Now, if you remember, Sarah Palin has refered to this "average American" as "Joe Sixpack", a kind of term of enderiment for all those 40-80 year old, white men, who like to relax infront of the TV with none other then a six pack of beer by thier side... of course I'm guessing that this is what Sarah Palin means by "Joe Sixpack". Now, I've never actually met a "Joe Sixpack" or "Joe Plumber" and I've certently never met an "average American"! Howerver, I can digress all I want about what the term "average American" means to me and different people throughout the U.S. but, in reality, the definition will change from state to state, county to county, city by city and person to person.... and thats what makes America so awesome!! So, Obama doesnt have to be in touch with the "average American" he just needs to be in touch with the "American People"... the Eloquent American, the African American, the Middle Class American, the Homosexual American, the Working Poor American, the Wealthy American, the Single Parent American, the Asian American, the Intelectual American, the Working- College Student -Mexican -Future Educator- American!!!! (the last one is me)

We the American People "contain multitueds*" and we are all too unique to be classfied as "average Americans"

I, personally, am tired of "Joe the plumber" and "Joe Sixpack"!! I don't want to aspire to be an average anything! I want to be an eloquent, question asking, college educated, hard working American who knows how to "pay attention to words", as McCain stated in tonights debate. Mr. McCain better watch out because I'm pretty sure "Joe the plumber" knows how to "pay attention to words" and that "Joe Sixpack" will surprise ya, dontcha know!

two excerpts from tonight's debate:

MCCAIN: Well, you know, I admire so much Senator Obama's eloquence. And you really have to pay attention to words. He said, we will look at offshore drilling. Did you get that? Look at. We can offshore drill now. We've got to do it now. We will reduce the cost of a barrel of oil because we show the world that we have a supply of our own. It's doable. The technology is there and we have to drill now.

MCCAIN: Just again, the example of the eloquence of Senator Obama. He's health for the mother. You know, that's been stretched by the pro-abortion movement in America to mean almost anything.

Eloquence- vivid, forceful, fluent, ect.
in speech and writing
-Webster's New World Compact Office Dictionary

And one last thing, FUCK YOU UNDECIDED VOTERS!!!! If you were looking to learn anything new by watching this THIRD debate, then you suck! Oh, and an even bigger FUCK YOU to CNN and their stupid, useless, dial things that only track the stupidity of those using them!!!!!

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*see Walt Whitman's "Song of Myself"

Here:

2008-10-01T21:44:00.000-07:00

A Supermarket In George W. Bush's America

What thoughts I have of you tonight, George W. Bush, for
I walked down the sidestreets under the trees with a headache no-health insurance looking at the full moon.
In my hungry fatigue, and shopping for discount foods, I went
into the neon pesticide fruit supermarket, dreaming of your failed economic plan!
What peaches and what penumbras! Whole families
shopping with food stamps! Aisles full of China made dog food! Led in the avocados, plastic in the babies milk!--and you, Dick Chaney, what were you doing down by the watermelons?

I saw you, George W. Bush, shameless,old grubber,poking among the meats in the refrigerator and eying the beer aisle.
I heard you asking questions of each: Who killed the
pork chop soldiers? What price bananas? Are you my ally?
I wandered in and out of the brilliant stacks of cans
following you, and followed by the store's racial profiler.

We can never walk down the open corridors together, your administration tasting artichokes, possessing every frozen delicacy, and never passing the
cashier.

Where are we going, George W. Bush? The doors close in a hour.
Which way do your bombs point tonight?
(I try to touch the constitution and dream of our Country in Peace and
feel absurd.)
Will we fight all night through Iraqi streets? The rising smoke add shade
to shade, lights out in the houses, I'll be charged.
I'll stroll dreaming of the lost America of love past blue automo-
biles in homeowner driveways, home to a silent life?
Ah, dear father, Al Gore, lonely old, courage-teacher, what America
did you have when Florida quit polling her voters and you got out on a smoking bank and stood watching the White House disappear on the black waters of
Lethe?

Its the most wonderful time of the year!!

2008-09-29T22:55:00.000-07:00

The holiday season is in the air! Stores have Halloween and Christmas crap, the calendar says its the first day of autumn and its 90 degrees outside, red flag fire alerts... its... its the most wonderful time of the year!

Another reason to rejoice about the upcoming holidays are, of course, the movies!! There are a slew of Oscar trolling movies ready to hit theaters in October, November and December. Here are some trailers that have me watering at the mouth:

Ron Howard gives us "Frost/Nixon". I automatically like any movie that has to do with Richard Nixon and Watergate. Oh, and, Sam Rockwell is in it!

Gus Van Sant with "Milk", the true story about "California's first openly gay elected official." (IMDB.com). I love Gus Van Sant and I cant wait to see this! See also: "My Own Private Idaho", "Drugstore Cowboys" and "To Die For"

"American Beauty" director Sam Menes with "Revolutionary Road". This looks like Titanic's Jack and Rose meets "Mad Men"... awesome.

This preview came on before "Burn after Reading", which I saw tonight, and it looks pretty interesting. It kinda reminds me of last years "Atonement", which I hated.

Charlie Kauffman writes and directs "Synecdoche, New York". Reasons for seeing: Charlie Kauffman writes and directs.

Because Oliver Stone has a way with Presidential movies. Homer Simpson said it best, "Lee Harvey Oswald shot JFK to get the Jack Ruby". Oliver Stone's "W."

"Six Feet Under" creator, Alan Ball directs Towlhead. I'll probably see this over the weekend. It is now playing in limited release.

And now something for the kids!

Note that these are all dramas so you better get your laughs in with "Choke" and "Burn after Reading"... its gonna be a cruel winter.

Choke (wannabe movie review)

2008-09-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

As I mentioned in my last entry, Sam Rockwell is pretty much the bees knees and last night I finally got to see him in his new film, "Choke".

"Victor Mancini, a sex-addicted med-school dropout, who keeps his increasingly deranged mother, Ida, in an expensive private medical hospital by working days as a historical re-enactor at a Colonial Williamsburg theme park. At night, Victor runs a scam by deliberately choking in upscale restaurants to form parasitic relationships with the wealthy patrons who "save" him. When, in a rare lucid movement, Ida reveals that she has withheld the shocking truth of his father's identity, Victor enlists the aid of his best friend, Denny and his mother's beautiful attending physician, Dr. Paige Marshall, to solve the mystery before the truth of his possibly divine parentage is lost forever."

- I pulled the above synopsis from IMDB.com (I'm too lazy to summarize the movie myself. I start my review below)

In his first crack at directing/writing a film, actor Clark Gregg managed to bring most of Chuck Palahniuk's novel to the big screen with a few script stumbles here and there. However, with the help of a wonderful cast, that included Anjelica Houston and Kelly Macdonald (or that chick from Trainspotting and No Country for Old Men) and of course Sam Rockwell as Victor Mancini, Gregg managed to pull off an all round satisfactory adapatation.

With many first timer kudos to the director, I believe Sam Rockwell's performance made the movie work. Rockwell gave viewers a well balanced look at Victor and all the hang ups he contains. From the over the top, very realistic, choking scenes, to the raunchiest of sex scenes, Mr. Rockwell made it look seamless! However, I think, he was at his best in the dramatic exchanges between Anjelica Houston's character, Ida Mancinic, Victor Mancini's demented mother. In the end, "Choke" was proof that Sam Rockwell is one of the most underrated actors in show biz and he deserves much praise for his role as Victor.

Limited Release
As the end credits were rolling and the theater clearing, I over heard a person ask another, "who was that?" and the other replied "oh, that was Sam Rockwell".

What are you still doing here?! GO SEE IT!

Fuck all other movie stars, its all about Sam Rockwell!

2008-09-21T02:14:00.000-07:00

Sam Rockwell had me at "Confessions of a Dangerous Mind" and If I would have seen "Box of Moon Light" or "Lawn Dogs" before seeing "Confessions of a Dangerous Mind" I would have said the same thing about him in those two other films. I recently saw Rockwell in "Snow Angels" in which he plays Glenn, a sort of "dead-beat-dad" character, who had an alcohol problem but then seemed to recover by sobering up and becoming a born-again Christan. Glenn tries to return as the father figure to his young daughter and he also tries to show his wife, played by Kate Beckinsale, that he has changed his ways. The movie does have a whole other cast of characters that have their own, just as interesting, stories but Rockwell's portrayal of Glenn stood out to me the most.

As in "Snow Angles" and other films, Sam Rockwell brings a certain tangibility to his characters. Glenn, for instance, in the begging of the film, is apologetic and passive and the viewer, me at least, felt embarrassed for him as he would try to prove his changed ways to his family and friends.

In other words, Rockwell is (always was) all the rage in my book and he should be in others' because the guy has like 6 movies coming out soon, just check out his IMDB page:

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0005377/

Don't even get me started on "Choke"! I recently finished reading the Chuck Palahniuk novel that was adapted into a film that will star none other then the golden boy himself. Ah, but this is another post all together and I will write more about it after I see the movie.

lets talk in passing

2008-09-20T21:55:00.000-07:00

me: Hey, did you hear about the bombing on the U.S. Embassy in Yemen?

mom: Are you gonna eat this Hot Pocket?

me: No.

"Something the Lord Made"

2008-09-11T14:24:00.000-07:00

Now, I'm going to admit that I edited this picture but I think it could be effective for the McCain/Palin cause... you know, since the republican party is trying to win over those deaf, blind, and dumb Hillary Clinton voters (the words: deaf, blind and dumb used for sarcasm). Sarah Palin is woman. Hillary Clinton is a woman. It makes sense, people. If you got all the parts like a lady then you must be a lady. Put lipstick on a lady and she's still a lady. Say that a lady has a plan for universal health care... I'd say that lady is smart! Say that another lady believes that no other lady, excluding herself and her family, should have the right to choose what happens to her body... I'd say that lady has no right!

Also, for the record, I'm 100% sure that Sarah Palin is a ploy... hell, it even rhymes!

Don't you think its sexist of the republican party to use a woman as a blatant distraction so that they might win control of this country?

The facts are at our feet, people. The past eight years have been great examples of how we don't want the next four to be. Don't let a distraction like Sarah Palin get in the way of this country's lively hood! Vote for real change! Vote for Barack Obama on November 4th, 2008

*also, regarding the fine print at the bottom of the picture, have you heard McCain or Palin utter the word "gay"?

I pulled this from the Obama website:

Combat Employment Discrimination

Obama will work to overturn the Supreme Court's recent ruling that curtails racial minorities' and women's ability to challenge pay discrimination. Obama will also pass the Fair Pay Act to ensure that women receive equal pay for equal work and the Employment Non-Discrimination Act to prohibit discrimination based on sexual orientation or gender identity or expression.

Pulled from the McCain website:

I'm still looking for something that kinda resembles that las sentince from the Obama page. Prove me wrong McCain, prove me wrong!

Was your job outsourced?

2008-09-04T22:22:00.000-07:00

Are you in your late 40s, 50s or even 60s?

Got a family?

Got Bills?

Got animals who don't like to eat fake food from China?

Then you better vote for John McCain!

His (also G.W.B's plan) plan is to send YOU back to school (community college)! :D

Now, I've been working for a certain community college for almost 4 years now and its pretty damn easy to go to a CC for little to no money, in the state of California, BUT that is not the case in other states!

How are you suppose to go back to school when you lost your job? Who is suppose to pay the bills? Who the fuck is gonna pay your tuition? What the hell are you gonna learn? Why was your job outsourced?

BUT Wait!
If your a Republican, you don't have this "outsource" problem because your making $200,000 + a year! However, if you are one of the ones who has recently lost your job and can NOT afford to go back to school and learn another trade... then you will be cast out into poverty and eaten by wild dogs! For you see, you don't matter, you couldn't help your self when your company went over seas. What the hell is the matter with YOU?

Also,
Did you know Sarah Palin only has a bachelors degree?

I'm 4 semesters, 5 kids, and 1 PTA meeting away from being the next VP! YESSSSS! OH, and I'm a chick! Why didn't McCain pick me?!

this will be one of the last of my rants... I'm sorry to all of you who don't know what I'm talking about... I'm really, really, sorry for you(like sarcastically sorry)

Jibberty Box

2008-09-01T00:18:00.000-07:00

I would just like to say that I've really let this blog go. I've lost track of the theme of it all. And whats with the title?

Any how, I'm sure my two readers (myself just after posting and myself two days after posting) think its all genius. Look here's some good stuff now:

I recently wrote some stuff while I was waiting for my math class to start. I wrote it on the very last page of my note book so, when I get bored in class, I can turn to the back page and re-read what I wrote and wonder what the hell I was thinking.
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I sat down at my desk and carefully set out my book, notebook and work sheet. I was the first student in the room and the teacher's lonely soul was looming in the front, facing his audience of desks. Turning my attention back to my materials on my desk, I noticed how picturesque everything looked, how obvious it all looked. I began to think of what a nice picture this would indeed make so I began to lean back in my chair to see if I could get a different look out of something that was flat on the desk. With my two chair legs off the ground, I cupped my hands over my eyes and tried to frame and snap a quick, imaginary, picture.

"Snap", I said, in a whisper.

As I was still leaned back in my chair, I noticed that two people had walked in the door. I quickly brought the chair legs to all floors, opened my notebook, to the last page, and began to write nonsense.
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Admin Robots: Part 1

2008-07-17T13:44:00.001-07:00

"Model # 289UT1-Carnivorous Copier"

Free Form Jazz (this post has nothing to do with Jazz)

2008-07-16T19:55:00.000-07:00

I'm not motivated to write anything but I still wanna post. SO, I'm just gonna post pictures. Blah, Blah, Blah... life has been one monotone slow jam. Here is some media:

4th of July:
We had a pinata with George Bush's face on it... we finally got to beat him with a baseball bat!

My Mom's Dog, Lucky:

I am not a Dog person but this dog is too damn cute to hate (yes I hate all other dogs!)! True, he is kinda hostile but he fits in with our already psychotic, 20 pound cat.

Comic Con... Starts next week!!!
Yes, Michael C. Hall will be there and I will get to see him in all his David Fisher/ Dexter glory! Also, yes, I will get Paul Ruben's autograph and wait out side ball rooms and halls to see awesome panels from movies and TV shows that I like.

Me, on the internets?!

yeah, that's me looking all democraty!

Now I'm gonna leave you with a song (hint: I'm watching Dream Girls on HBO)

summer time and the bloggings easy? (feel free to boo)

2008-06-17T21:59:00.000-07:00

Its summer and that means school is out and my time on the internet has increased by 20%! I've been using my extra percentage to do research... research on movies, TV shows, music, books to read, and other stuff that can keep my MTV generation, 8 second, attention span. Today, Tuesday 6/17/08 9:58PM, I am currently into the following (like you care):

Casey Affleck

I finally saw "The Assasination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford". It was an all around good movie and I especially liked the narration. The movie also has a great cast that included Brad Pitt (meh) Sam Rockwell AND Casey Affleck who plays Robert Ford. I've only seen Casey in smaller roles like 1995's "To Die For", which is an awesome movie, and his work in the Ocean's 11 movies. However, Casey is spot on in "The Assassination of Jesse James"... he maintains a sense of innocence while still being mysterious. I'm anxious to see Casey in "Gone Baby Gone", a film that was written and directed by older brother Ben Affleck (I refuse to give Ben kudos).

Oh yeah and the guy is totally hot

Michael C. Hall

I should mention that I did indeed get a cable upgrade (see "the cool stuff" blog entry) that includes all the HBO, Showtime and Cinemax channels. With my new access to the world of really expanded cable, I've become a fan of Showtime's Original Series, "Dexter". One of my best friends mentioned the show to me over a year ago and I, stupidly, shrugged off the recommendation since I didn't have Showtime. I was able to watch both seasons 1 & 2 on Showtime on demand and after watching the first 3 episodes I was hooked by the character of Dexter and the actor that plays him, Michael C. Hall.

I made sure I watched both seasons before doing any research online about the show... I didn't want to run in to any reviews or spoilers or anything like that. However, after the last episode of season 2, I quickly started looking for all things Dexter.

So after two weeks after watching the first episode, I am now almost done reading the first book "Darkly Dreaming Dexter", I've seen the first three episodes of Six Feet Under (I got more discs on the way, via Netflix) which stars Michael C. Hall. I've got the second Dexter book on my night stand ready for take off.

yeah, I'm a dork.

Well I guess that's it for now...

I'll leave you with Coldplay's new single "Viva La Vida"
(say what you will about Coldplay but I've been a fan since I first heard "Yellow" when I was in the 10th grade! Yes, X & Y was kinda boring but this "Viva la Vida" song is alright with me)

Coming soon:
Review of the Death Cab For Cutie Show
Comic Con
Christmas in July

Hue will dew

2008-05-26T23:39:00.000-07:00

There is dew on that fallen flower.
Each drop of dew neatly placed
to reflect each petal's hue.
It lays in brown mulch,
it lays untouched,
uncrushed.

Other flowers are near,
dead, smashed and dry,
dead end soldiers on a rough battle field
left to settle in the ground.

The dew sprinkled flower shines
beautifully unaware

until

a gust of wind, a shoe's sole, the sky's sol...

makes this crystallized flower

become nothing more then debris from the tree
above.

Another flower will fall
to replace
to replenish
to repair
To Respond.

cool stuff , stuff that is cool (a blog post with different stuff, that is cool)

2008-05-17T19:17:00.000-07:00

Bixby Canyon Bridge

My mom and I are finally gonna make the trip up north to San Francisco in early August. Yeah I'm going on a road trip with my Mum... does that make me any less cool? NO, because luckily for me, my mom is cool... so if anything I'm making her less cool. I want to do the whole Big Sur thing because thats what kids my age are into.

Flight of the Conchords

I'm a little late but I don't care because not having HBO is cooler then having HBO. Although I do plan to sign up for a cable upgrade. Anyways, I'm gonna go see them next month, which is fantastico!

In conclusion:
My finals are on Tuesday and I really, really don't want to study. But life is about doing stuff you don't want to do and then deciding not to do them.

I guess "stuff" should be more then two things... I should have called this "Two Cool Things"... but since I listed two things I guess its a "Small Portion"... ah, but I should have called it "A Small Portion of Cool"... damn.

April 26th - May 3rd or Saturday to Saturday

2008-05-04T21:29:00.000-07:00

I was so gonna write a blog about the Los Angeles Times Festival of books... but I didn't. Then I was totally gonna write a blog about the She & Him show on Tuesday... but I didn't. OH, then I was gonna write a blog on how I should be doing math homework but haven't had time to actually do it because I've been sleep deprived from driving back and forth from LA... but I never did that because I fell asleep. Ah and then Friday came and my brother, Alex, and I had tickets to see Michale Buble and while waiting for Buble to take the stage I told Alex "I'm so gonna write a blog about this"... turns out, I didn't. Then after sleeping through almost all of yesterday, I went to check out Birtt Daniel's solo show at The Belly Up... I never said I would write a blog about the show but I so intended to.

So here it goes... all the shit I did and didn't do last week, in a quick summary because I got a shit load of math homework to catch up on.

LA TIMES FESTIVAL OF BOOKS: 4/26
Turn off's:
- a lot more people then usual
- it was hotter then hell that day
- we got there a little too late and missed the free C-Span bags

Turn on's:
- It was the LA Times Festival of Books
- UCLA
- Interesting booths with free books
- I saw two past contestants of Bravo's Top Chef

SHE & HIM @ THE VISTA THEATER: 4/ 29
Turn off's:
-I had to miss Spanish class for this show... I wouldn't really care that much but its the end of the semester and tengo que impress mi profesora
- the show was in LA and gas prices are high

Turn on's
- got there early and found excellent parking space
- second group of people in line
- Sat front row, arms length away from the band
- Jason Schwartzman was there, OMG!! :D
- Zooey Deschanel's voice can easily move mountains
-M. Ward
Set List (thanks to Adan who was able to get one off the stage) :
black hole
change is hard
made for you (chah cha cha)
sentimental heart
you really got a hold
take it back
got me
dusty
saw your face today
this is not a test
why do you
sweet darlin
encore
magic trick
bring it home
spell

From Wednesday to Thursday I had the Intermediate Algebra blues:
What the hell is a Logarithmic function and how do you graph it?

MICHAEL BUBLE:
Turn off's:
- our seats were sub shitty
- a lot of old cougars with bad perfume
- it was at the Cox Arena
- Buble didn't do "Come Fly with Me"

Turn on's:
- I got a sick ass concert shirt with Michale Buble's face all over it!
- Buble managed to make the whole crowd swoon... *sigh*
- Great all around show... like nothing I've ever experienced

BRITT DANIEL'S SOLO SHOW:
Turn off's:
-NONE!

Turn on's
- Getting to say hello to Britt before the show
- seeing Britt Daniel
- hearing Britt Daniel
- His cover of Wolf Parade's "Modern World"
- Britt Daniel

Here is some fan footage from the show:

Britt Daniel - 04
Uploaded by starbright31

In conclusion:

The past week was busy and stressful... now I'm totally gonna do my math homework.

2nds

2008-04-18T19:45:00.000-07:00

I'm constantly re-evaluating and second guessing things. Por ejemplo, after reading and re-reading my first blog entry, I realized that it made me come across as a humble nobody from nowheresville looking to hitch a ride to Whocares Town! But this is America and I'm an American so everything I say/ write is, and will always be, good*!

*some restrictions do apply

Shoes!

2008-04-15T00:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah so, I've been wearing slip on vans since the 9th grade ( lace up vans before that) and i figured, since i was getting along in age, that i should try a different shoe, a different style, if you will. On top of wanting to change my footwear style, I also wanted to make sure that my new shoes would be "eco" friendly and made in a non sweat shop environment, preferably in the U.S.A. SO, i began to do some research and found out about the SIMPLE shoe company http://www.simpleshoes.com/index.aspx

The site explains that their shoes are made out of recycled products, organic cotton and or hemp. However, I was a little skeptical becuase the site did not explain where the the shoes were actually manufactured.
http://www.simpleshoes.com/About/factoryCharter.aspx?g=about

It kinda bothered that I didn't know who was making the shoes. I wanted to get away from mystery fabrics and factories. My Vans where made in China, thats all I know about them. "Simple" shoes are made of "eco" friendly stuff... thats all i know about them.

I think a big part about being environmentally aware is BEING AWARE of where things come from, what its made out of, who makes it and how it is made.

Its just like those cloth bags that they sell in supermarkets.... are they really doing the environment much help? Couldn't you just reuse paper bags? And when the paper bags wear out you could recycle them, eh? Most of those bags are probably made in sweat shops! Right? (note to self, do more research on cloth bags)

In the end, I might just go on as usual... driving my Vans into the ground before buying a new pair. (not to self, look up shoe recycling center)

American Apparel should make shoes.

And such small portions

2008-04-03T20:51:00.000-07:00

I never thought I would get one of these blogging accounts and I feel kinda dumb and pretentious for doing so. Why would other people care what I say (write)? Why, even the lay out and the text of this site looks snobby! But I guess it doesn't matter what I write because I'm the only one who will actually read it.

"Your a big fat phony!"